With everything looming
Holiday cheer seems out of grasp,
And with my life all-consuming
I am not sure how long I can make the smiles last.
My heart feels heavy
And my joy slowly fades,
How I wish I could be happy
You know what? Forget it.
I am going to just be.
Because I am enough where I am,
I am enough just as me.
I will find peace with this day
And love myself through it still,
Because a date on the calendar
Does not change that my soul deserves to be filled.
I may not be
In the place that I wanted right now,
But I have air in my lungs
And today, I got up somehow.
I will find one thing to be thankful for
Every time I want to give in,
And that is the gift I will give myself this holiday…
Because I deserve it. The end.