“Just Eat a Hamburger”: Why Recovery From Anorexia Isn’t So Simple

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Susan Elizabeth Philips once said, “Anything worth having is worth fighting for.” Truer words have never been spoken yet they can be so hard to swallow; especially when it comes to recovering from an eating disorder.

There is a wide misconception in the world that eating disorders are about food… I am here to tell you, food becomes the focus, but the deeper lying issues that brought about the eating disorder behaviors are the real problem. When I was at my worst in anorexia, I had a co-worker tell me to “go eat a hamburger”. I laughed off the insensitive and ignorant comment when it was said, but I went back to my classroom and I cried. My first thoughts were, “I wish it were that simple.”

Not everyone suffers from an eating disorder, but many have experienced disordered eating habits from time to time. I believe this is why it is hard for someone who has tried a diet and then gone back to normal, intuitive eating to understand the fear, shame, and anxiety that engulf a person’s brain who has been clinically diagnosed with an eating disorder. When I began my disordered behaviors, it started off slow. I would restrict here and there. First, I cut out dairy. Then I cut out carbohydrates, and then I cut out sugar altogether. It became like a drug to me. It was never enough. At one point my eating disorder only allowed me to eat dry tuna. I had the same struggle with exercise. I started off running short distances, then longer, and longer, and longer… by the end of my struggle, I was running for two plus hours a day and running in 24 hour ultra-marathon races. I was not just participating in a fad diet for kicks or exercising for the health benefits; I was tumbling down a dangerous path of destruction. If eating a hamburger would have stopped me from spending thousands of dollars getting professional help and six months in treatment, I think I would have taken the burger.

I remember telling someone close to me that I was going to get treatment for an eating disorder at an inpatient treatment center, and their response was, “What do you do at a place like that, sit around and eat?” Well, yes, food is involved, but the intensive focus on inner self, past trauma, and self-worth is the mind blowing and life altering part. Patients in 24/7 hospitalization are going to eight hours of therapy and group sessions daily, sitting down to 3 meals and 3 snacks a day, and are under staff observation constantly, even while using the bathroom. When I went into treatment, I did not realize how much work was involved on my end; it was the hardest work of my life, but the rewards of that labor are priceless to me now in my recovery.

When I went into treatment, I did not realize how much work was involved on my end; it was the hardest work of my life, but the rewards of that labor are priceless to me now in my recovery

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I have always been told, what you put out there is what you get back. In recovering from any disease or addiction, this phrase could not be more appropriate. Yes, recovery is hard, but you decide your future with what you put into your present. A quote from Ron Blue, a financial adviser, really resonated with me throughout my time in treatment; “The longer term your perspective, the better your decisions will be.” As I struggled to finish meals, face the uncomfortability of weight restoration, and come to terms with emotions that I had always found a way to numb out, I kept this quote in mind. I want to live a happy, healthy, spontaneous life full of joy with my family and friends- my eating disorder was taking that away from me. If I wanted my life to change, I had to put the effort into getting better in the present so I could live the life I wanted in the future.

As the kids today say, the struggle is real, y’all. Never underestimate what a person is going through to fight the demons of an eating disorder. When they are in the ED trenches, it is a battle like no other. Emotions are not logical, nor are they rational. A person with an eating disorder is fighting the battle of getting to live the life that every human being deserves; a life with laughter, joy, pain, happiness, love, hope, and self-acceptance. It goes way beyond eating a hamburger or putting down the fries. It goes into the depths of a soul, of a life, of a journey; it is a person trying to live and love beyond what they are capable of comprehending. The struggle is real, so let us not diminish the work that it takes to recover. Oh, but Warrior, it is so worth it in the end. I promise.


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  • Great words. Thank you for sharing and supporting others. Reading this is making me realize that though I have fought the labeling, I do struggle with this. Blasted genetics!

  • Genetics… not something we can choose… believe me, I know! So glad you read this article- reach out anytime if you need support/encouragement through your process!

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