Black Mist, White Light: Encouragement For Your Darkest Moments (a poem)

It takes over you

It runs your life
It sucks you in
Lost in a fog

Once you are in the black mist
It seems like there is no escape

Never give up

There is always light
Even in the darkest times

You see it
That little glow in the pitch-black darkness
You start to reach for the light
Tasting freedom as it comes

But you immediately stop yourself

Suddenly, the black mist surrounds you
Tempting you to come back
It starts making promises that you know it will never keep
But you feel those feelings again

The black mist gives you this pleasure as you breathe it in
A sense of control
It takes the feelings away so you do not have to feel

You look away for a moment
Staring at that faint glow with envy but think
What could this little white light possibly do for me?

As you venture back into the darkness it feels incredible

But those moments pass just as quickly as they arrive
You start to feel trapped again
Lost in an endless cycle
Never-ending extremes of bliss and suffering
The illusory sense of control takes over until you lose yourself
The black mist is eating away at you slowly

One chance
You think
One chance to save yourself

You go back toward the white light
Desperately running
Sweat dripping down your cold pale face

You think
Freedom as you get closer to the white light
Warmth
Feelings you have never felt before come alive
Joy, sadness, anger, fear, hope
Light and dark

Life and death

Once you’re inside that little white light
You are blinded
Fearing the unknown
But in time
You awaken

Choosing life over death

Not just surviving but thriving
Alive for the beautiful mess that we call life
All these feelings overwhelm you as you realize
You are finally free in the white light

Your skin glows with radiance
Your hair long and healthy
Your body strong
You have escaped

You are free

Living in the balance

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